January 2010
10 posts
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The Fuck Up
You ask me what’s up. I try to talk to you, but your phone rings and suddenly you’re unaware. What’s up is that it’s all fucked and I’m tired of waiting. I’m tired of wonderingworryingaddressing this issue of what to do and of what to say. In the end, I’m certain you don’t even care what I do. So let’s give up and just walk away; it’s all...
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I forgot to mention.
I have an older sister, an older brother, and a younger brother.
May 2006, at the east shore of Flathead Lake after Big Sis’s graduation from high-school.
June 2007, in the parking lot with Little Bro and one of my grandmothers (I have three) after my high-school graduation.
Just because you have different mothers and misters doesn’t mean you aren’t family—Big Bro...
#56: PETA
megangarza:
american-apologies:
People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals (PETA) was founded in 1980 and based in Virginia as an animal rights organization seeking to end abuse against animals. While PETA always claims to have the best intentions for animals, their methods have been anything but respectable. Even if you ignore the fact that they objectify women by sexualizing them for the...
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Once Upon a Time...
I used to believe that the highway sang the melody that is forever lulling me to sleep, so I hit the pavement running, hurting what you called ballerina feet. As if leaving this town was what was going to save us; as if I could find something new in order to simply thrill us. But then I grew up, banishing the Child Lolita along with your smoke rings, your green eyes, your affections. You left me...
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Fierce.
The anchor that kept you submerged—
well, the chain finally broke.
As fierce as you could,
you kicked and paddled faster with every stroke;
gasping for air at the top.
And once you caught your breath,
as every brave girl learns,
all the bullshit stopped
the second you finally let go.
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I know better than to miss "The Good 'Ol Days"...
we left the house on Bug Creek to
its personal manifest destiny of
toxic walls and rotten floorboards.
While packing up, you nearly had a heart-attack after
I found what you had hidden with your socks—
tourniquets and candy-colored rocks.
So I obliterated the lokies with a hammer
‘cuz I knew there was a “lie” in whatever you told me to “believe.”
As if...
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Being.
He looks back at me and him
and overlooks the pain within.
He always knew I would never stay here:
I would be long time gone as soon as I had my chance,
but, for some reason, he still asked me to dance.
I laugh out-loud as my bubblegum pops in my face,
it sticks to my nose and the minty flavor stings;
I like to think you know you have always been my saving grace.
I can’t figure out...
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"I don't think you have to excuse him because he...
In order to be your own person,
in order to get past it,
you need to give back
what they gave you.
On the edge versus not making waves…
“There goes the relationship.”
Once people realize it’s true,
it’s hard to get past it.
Before we have apple pie and ice-cream…
“Familiarity breeds contempt.”
But what happened to
my only one chance
...
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Somewhere between the Second Star to the Right and...
I pushed away contentment in fear of selfishness,
and decided I couldn’t ask you to follow me.
I had done my best to understand your idiosyncrasies,
but now that I’m five states and away and five months in,
I realize alcoholism isn’t a simple disease.
I could’ve swore…
the soundtrack of our summer
used to pulsate through my veins,
but now that it’s...
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Live the Life You Dreamed of
because once it’s over, you’ll wonder of where the time was spent.
Sunrise: youthful times call for innocent measures.
Runningjumpingskipping.
Laughingdancingdrinking.
Start new, start something, start being.
Sunset: Riddle me this, promise me that.
Fuckinglyingcheating.
Yellingfightingleaving.
Stop talking, stop eating, stop breathing.
Hope runs deep in hearts,
...